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One thing that I’m really uncomfortable with is that everybody knows there’s clearly a better way out but instead they always chose the worse and seems to me they’d rather stay in the “dirt”. And what’s even worse is when I realize it’s probably the bloody same for a lot of everyone that you can’t control yourself very well, you would sometimes go down the path that leads to nowhere, uncontrollably. And it’s probably a really bad thing to be conscious of this self-destruction conceptualization.